this is definitely not a biography...
but i didnt want to make a journal or scraps
so here goes
i made a new DA account
and ive probably added you already.... but...
i might not have :P
so my new account is
REWINDtheNIGHT
and i took all the stuff from this account that i like and i put it there
and of course im uploading new stuff
sooo you should check me out ;)
(i already have a new one you guys havent seen :P )
good day sir
apples are good
apples are great,
apple are food
when served in a crate
some are big
and some are small,
they grow on trees
that are very tall.
why are red,
why are green,
why are yellow,
with a taste that is mean.
drunk and falling over
tripping on challenges
i make my way to the door
to get out of this hell-hole
almost sweating blood
such intensity in this awful place
i need to get out of this
into something lighter
lit by fire
flames licking the thick air
i lean over the steering wheel
trying to drive
im too out of control
i cant do this without killing someone
i get out of the car and try to walk
but i just collapse on the sidewalk
pulling myself up straight
holding onto the pole
holding on for dear life
seeing how stupid ive been
i cry and cry and cry
its all so impossible
that i could have done all that
why is drinking so ad
6/6/06 10:50PM
i feel it drip down my back
the blood of my torture
i leapt, and my heart leaped with me.
my heart didnt jump far enough, however.
it was short, and it ended up on my back
where i was thrashed and lashed and hit and beat
my heart was right there
taking the heat
the anger i took out on myself
it hurts
but theres nothing i can do anymore
its over now
will it come back?
rocking the boat
the calm ocean puts me to sleep.
the sun goes down
and brilliant colors fill the sky.
so intense.
so deep.
i see the light
casting shadows on the waves,
the starting rain
making ripples in the surface.
dolphins jump
in big exciting loops.
with the oars at ease.
i slowly drift back home.
6/08/06 10:04PM
i walk accross this carpet of pain
a thousand mirrors broken
years of bad luck
like it oculd get any worse
glass all over
barefoot
stepping carefully
not carefully enough
it digs in
and the pressure is held
the pain is immense
but to complete my task
i must continue on
ignoring the pain
blood rushes out
staining the floor red
bandages cant help me now
beyond repair
i keep walking
walking through the pain
and the sorrow
and the suffereing
walk away from imagination. by seguicamma, literature
Literature
walk away from imagination.
12:02am 6/14/06
i walk past where you sit
but you dont look up
youre absorbed in your work
i swish my skirt
to make you notice me
i want you to notice me
and see me
to love me
the way i love you
its just my imagination running again
it runs and skips
but when it comes home
its covered in mud and dirt
to clean it off
i must bring myself back to reality
to where i know it will never happen
oh well
friends
just as well
as it wouldnt last
(june 18, 2006, 11:20am)
tears and sweat
mixing together
confusion is at the extreme
mixing dreams with reality
and reality with hopes
dreams and hopes soon fade
but the reality stands out even more now
unable to hide
sucking at the juice of fantasy
no more of anything
but reality
when reality is alone
it is much harsher
there is nothing to soften it with
no pillows or sugar
to calm the effect
just reality
all on its own
you lift me up, but i just fall again
you give me a hug, but i push you away
everything i get, i soon throw away
cuz nothing matters anymore
its just goin down the drain
how could you leave me
when i needed you most
although i pushed you away
i wanted you closer
who are you
that i cant see us anymore
i need a mirror
to see what is missing
tears in my eyes
i watch you go
waving goodbye
even after youre gone
you were here
but no more
just me alone in my misery
(june 17, 11:21pm)
they flow they flow they flow
the nightmares flow into my head
scaring me half to death
draining me of happiness
i wake up in a sweat
hands clammy and eyes wide
screaming in terror
that it would come true
i need to forget
and move on to something sweet
sugar and spice and everything nice
but its there
lingering
in the back of my mind
eating at my security
every move makes me jump
ever slight noise scares me out of my skin
i scream and jump and almost faint
it wont stop
it just keeps coming
why cant i wake up completely
its still half here
and im still half scared
june 19, 2006, (12 41pm)
bring me black roses
to my death bed
the end is almost here
i can hear it approaching
it rushes to my stronger than wind
louder than the cymbals crashing
brighter than the brightest light my eyes have seen
it gets closer and closer
and i know its time to die
I've got a new addiction,
A fixation, if you will.
It is soft and full of care.
It helps me sleep so still.
I've got a new addiction,
An obsession, if you will.
I have a need so deep for It.
A need I cannot fill.
I've got a new addiction,
A compulsion, if you will.
All the pain will go away
With just one simple pill.
I've got a new addiction,
A dependance, if you will.
And if I stay addicted,
My addiction will kill.
Factory From Hell by theemogirlnextdoor, literature
Literature
Factory From Hell
High pitched screams, an empty silence,
Waiting out this toxic violence;
Too many bodies cramped together,
Forced to stay, or hung on a tether.
Metal grumbles at every move,
A new body is crammed in every grove;
The wheels turn, there breaking down,
Water boils, the surviving drown.
A cry breaks out, the addicting sound,
Doesnt take long to pass around.
This factory from Hell will not stop,
Till every sane mind has gone pop.
An alarming bell stops the struggle,
The condemned break loose, in fear they huddle;
Darkness follows and guards surround,
A friend to hold is not allowed.
People are herded like cows to slaughter,
You see her from across the way
Reading what her body says
Long sleeves whispering of bleeding wrists
Eyes hang low, silently admitting it
You know all of these signs so well
The language it speaks, the stories they tell
It reads like novels, all full of misery
Some of the pages torn from your own history
Does it help you to see someone do it like you did
Can you see why your friends misconstrued it?
And they worried about you all night, every night
Can you see now how it was justified fright?
You study her scars and know it's not for attention
The contours of cuts you know that you should not mention
They creep back into darkne
i want to float through the galaxies
and fall down with the rain
I want to dance with the sunshine
and erase all the pain
i really cant deny it
but im so full of shame
just tell them that im happy now
soon theyll forget my name
the stars are so much prettier
when youre in the sky so close
the moon is so much softer
when its free of all the ghosts
the heavens glow and welcome you
into the wonderous place
wave goodbye to all the earth
and go out into space
Current Residence: MyOwnLittleWord, CA Favourite genre of music: Metal and Rock Favourite style of art: video digital enhancing Operating System: mac osx MP3 player of choice: ipod Shell of choice: turtles Wallpaper of choice: with sailboats and balloons Skin of choice: furry Favourite cartoon character: pon and zi :) Personal Quote: "life would be better if popsicles were healthy."
Favourite Visual Artist
Me of course
Favourite Movies
freedom writers, 10 things i hate about you, king kong, panic room, goes on and on
1. take pictures in a photobooth with a boyfriend and/or best friend.
2. make a custom alchoholic drink and name it after me.
3. see a meteor shower and wish on every single one.
5. publish a book.
6. write someone elses autobiography. (im not sure if its possible)
7. commit someone elses suicide. (yes its possible)
8. kick a moose. (kudos to scott)
9. pee in a bank.
10. make a friend pee his/her pants.
11. push someone out of a tree.
12. quit.
13. be asked to dance.
15. rock out with sylvia again. :)
16. get pied in the face with real pie (or cake)
17. make up a word and have it be in the dictionary. (colorifita?)
18. kiss in
i hate the way you talk to me
and the way you cut your hair
i hate the way you drive my car
i hate it when you stare
i hate your big dumb combat boots
and the way you read my mind
i hate you so much it makes me sick
it even makes me rhyme
i hate the way youre always right
i hate it when you lie
i hate it when you make me laugh
even worse when you make me cry
i hate it that youre not around
and the fact that you didnt call
but mostly i hate the way i dont hate you
not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all
ive got sunshine... on a cloudy day. when its cold outside, i got the month of may...... id. guess. youd. say... what can make me feel this way? my girl! (my girl, my girl!) talkin bout, my girl. i dont need no money... fortune or fame... i dont need no loving baby... id guess. youd. say... what can make me feel this way? my girl! (my girl, my girl!)
*dances*